do u believe in ghosts ?

yeah, do you .. ?

i've felt their presence.. and i've seen them in the middle of the night in my room.
but most people tell me that i was just tired. My brain were playing tricks on me..

naughty brain?

about 5 or 6 years ago when i was still in form1, i was constantly being disturbed by these things..

i cant even describe it in words. sometimes in the middle of the night.. and sometimes in the middle of broad day light.

fucked up?

sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night, n i see a figure on top of me, and i go screaming.. and my dad will come and try to calm me down, telling me its nothing. Thats cuz he doesnt see it, but i do..

this went on and on.. sometimes twice a week, sometimes 3 times a week.

i was going crazy.. i didnt tell anybody in school, i was afraid they'd think im psycho.. only my family knew about this.

was i sick?

sometimes this happens in the afternoon when i was napping. ok im pretty sure they're not nightmares.. it was as real as fuck. This thing that disturbs me.. sometimes shakes the bed and make me wanna puke.. sometimes just holding me down.. basically makes me lose my mind.

this went on for about a year.. and there was nothing i could do.

so my mom decided to get a priest/pastor to come, and pray for me.. and pray for our house.

and fortunately.. after that afternoon when the pastor came, i was never disturbed ever again.

can somebody explain this to me? was i sick.. or was i going through puberty..? lol or was i mind-fucking myself..

...bye!

p/s.. the picture is totally unrelated..

Man's best friend.

We once had a doberman when i was about 9 or 10 years old. His name was Jimmy.. that was 8 or 9 years ago(the dog in my picture is not jimmy). My dad loved him.. and one thing about dogs, their life span is only up to a maximum of 10years or so...

anyways.. when Jimmy turned 9 years old.. He became weak, really weak.. and we discovered some blood stains on the ground.. and we called the vet to come over to have a look. Unfortunately.. Jimmy has a tumour growing ON its neck. We didnt see it earlier..

The dog was in critical condition.. it could barely move. We couldnt do anything. The Vet performs an operation in our backyard. Jimmy was crying.. we could see the tears. There was alot of blood.

My dad started crying.

it was the first time i saw my dad cry. i guess i was old enough to tell that my dad really loved Jimmy. and moments after my dad started crying.. the rest of the family started crying too.

the vet told my dad that there is no hope for the dog. There was only 2 options left, 1 is to let it die a slow and painful death, the other option was the put it to sleep.

my dad chose to let the dog live for as long as possible..

Few days later.. as my mom went to take a look at Jimmy, Jimmy stood up and walked towards my mom, to let my mom pet him. After my mom pet him, Jimmy walked towards the far end of my backyard.. and layed down.

and he never woke up..

My dad got home from work and started digging a grave for Jimmy. It took my dad about 2hours or so to dig a grave big and deep enough.. i couldnt help my dad, i was too young..

Dogs are indeed..a man's best friend.

...bye!

mismatch.

these pictures make me happy.. ;)

if u look at it from a different view..

adam lambert of american idol.

is adam lambert.. gay? well.. personally, i've seen his gay pictures. where he was kissing with another man. and dressed up like a lady. but to mee... he has a great vocal && i think hes gonna be the next american idol.

ok IF he was gay, why did he pretend to be straight on the show..

okay first of all.. i have nothing against gays. they're fine with me. im not a hater, i dont hate gays. its tolerable. its acceptable.

so IF he was gay.. why did he pretend to be straight?

its cuz i think he knows that hes not gonna get much votes if people knew he was gay. Thats one thing about people.. too many haters watching the show.

if you live in america, and u watch american idol. would you have voted for him if you found out he was gay? if you'd still vote for him, then ur a good person. if you wouldnt vote for him anymore.. then.. lol.

people really should start accepting other people for their differences.. yeah?

lol if i lived in america.. i'd vote for him.

ohh and.. Scott is out.. :(

...bye!

i'll be there.

have you ever came across such situations where.. you REALLY needed help, or you really needed somebody to come over to your place, to talk.. or any situations similar to this. and you call your friend.. and ask if he/she could come over.

and your friend tells you "i'll be there"

if at that moment, you feel like you have some great friends.. you feel like you are truly blessed with amazing friends who will be there for you, who will come to your rescue.. if thats how you feel at that very moment.. then we are the same, you and i.

"i'll be there" consist of 3 very normal words. "i'll" , "be" , "there" .
but when put together.. its a very powerful sentence. yeah?

same goes to "i miss you"

and also "i love you"

to me.. "i'll be there" is just as powerful as "i love you" and "i miss you"


..bye!

in one hour..

in the past one hour u probably spoke 2500 words if u were allowed to.. blinked about 500 times and your heart pumped 2 tons of blood, and u lost enough body heat to boil 2 pints of water.. n ur fingernails grew 327th of an inch..

12,000 new born babies.. 2000 of them are most likely chinese. 2000 couples were married.. 1300 couples were divorced.. and the earth travelled some 60,000 miles in its orbit.. lightning struck at least one person or building somewhere.. ships sailed 6 million miles.. planes flew 11million miles.. and a snail probably moved 30meters..

60mins.. 3600 seconds..

and in this 60mins.. i couldnt stop thinking about u.. n i fink.. it'll be the same in the following hour.. n the next hour that comes along.. n the nex.. n the nex..

..bye! :(